The Sanctum Complex
Welcome to the blog for the somewhat dysfunctional family that is The Sanctum Complex. We're a system of howmanymembersagain, and this is our blog.
12/8/2019 0 Comments ThoughtsAlright.. What do I want to write here..? Thoughts, emotions. Ranting is what I wish to do. Yes. This is Taru, making a post for no other reason than to rant and share some snippets. I've been confused lately. Being that I'm the most prominent one in the system, I front the most, and the others sometimes fade into the very back of my mind. If I concentrate and consciously make an attempt to contact them, they will respond, but if I just go on with my day as if nothing is wrong, they will usually stay quiet. This had led me to honestly question the plurality. There's the thoughts of "what if they were never there in the first place?" and "maybe thay don't actually exist, after all". And it makes me unhappy to have such thoughts. The headmates is happiness. They can make me happy in a way that no one else can, and they cure my loneliness on my darkest days. Amani in particular has been with me for a bit longer than the others, I think, and he has helped me to regain and keep my confidence and beliefs when it comes to the transitioning journey. He has been a shoulder to cry on, an object to rant out my frustrations to and simply just a companion during my hours alone in the apartment. I don't know what I would do if I ever lost that. Though I've been lonely for most of my life, these few months in light of plurality have been enough time that we've developed bonds. I see them as a family, and it would no longer be normal for me to not have them there at all times. But at the same time, it feels like Taboo to change or shift from using the display name Taruyison to using something linked to the system. It's a bundle of fear, uncertainty, distrust, worry and panic. I know that these feelings are not only my own, as I mostly only feel uncertain and self-conscious about it. It's collective thoughts from all of us that give enough fucks to care about what the world might think. Fear of questions.. I am in all honesty uncertain about where things will go from here. There's a story that will be told in a later post here on Taru Tulpae - a story that strengthens my will and wish to keep my internal family close for the rest of my existence. For now, I'll keep thinking. For now, this will be the ending of this post, and I or any of the others will come back with more content some other time. Hopefully something that will be more interesting, since this was just me pouring my thoughts into a digital media. Anyways, so long sukkahs x
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3/8/2019 0 Comments DevelopmentsTaru speaking. We've had some discussions and developments in the system recently. For one thing, Taruno is no longer Taruno. They didn't like their name from the start, so we were searching for a new one for quite some time before finding something that fit. The suggestion I proposed was Ounos. It has a semblence to the nickname Uno, but is still a way from the old name Taruno. We wanted to go for a full name, so I did some searching on different topics and names. Different languages as well. What we came up with in the end is Ounos Mycroft Chrysaetos. The last is latin and makes up part of the scientific name for the golden eagle. Which is, of course, what Ounos is. A golden eagle, not one of those white bald eagles. Other news for name changes is Hami. We all seem to prefer calling them Hami now, rather than Ham. Except for Alex - he still goes with whatever he feels like in the moment. The name, however, is as fancy as Hamtaru Hamilton the Hampyster. Yes, the P and Y is supposed to be there. It's cuter. As for other changes, Lucifer seems to be on his way out. This is neither celebrated nor cried about, but it's respected. He didn't seem too much at home in our mindspace, and he has mentioned previously that he wasn't all that fond of the company. So, since this is mostly his own decision, we'll be watching him go without protest. Maybe we'll miss him at some point, but that's okay. If he has walked in once, he can probably walk in twice. But that's up to him, if he wants to bless us with his presence again. On the contrary of those news, we have gained a different member. This is also a fictive, but from the source InFamous: Second Son. The guy I'm talking about is of course Delsin Rowe in his own person. Delsin has already fronted a few times, and he seems to be able to do it with relative ease. He also doesn't seem too bothered with the body, which, in my mind, is a good thing. Then he can front whenever he wants without being bothered in the same way as Hami or Ounos might be. 🔥: "Still missing the powers" 🐺: "I know, I know. But there isn't any species dysphoria, right?" 🔥: "Nope, whatever the hell that is" 🐺: "You know what I mean" And lastly in this part of the news; we might have yet another member coming into the system. I've noticed some faint appearances, and I've seen a face. Contrary to the rest of the system though, this one is a factive - a headmate derived from a real life person. Which is pretty strange. But I'm sure we will be able to make the best of it and welcome this person with open minds and arms. Details about the person will come at a later point when we know for sure if it's actually who we've been thinking about and when we know for sure if they want to stay. So.. With the changes in names and new appearances, we have also made some changes in how we identify. And then I mean by text. Above was Delsin and me, Taru, speaking. Below will be a list with our identifying emojis and letters. Taruyison - T & 🏳️🌈 or 🐺 Alex - A & ☣️ or 🐉 Ounos - U & 🦅 Hamtaru - H & 🌸 or 🐱 Delsin - D & 🔥 or 🎮 or 🐰 Lucifer - L & 😈 or 🐍 Amani - M & ❄️ or 🦁 Chesx - C & 🥀 or 🌹 or 🦊 (new guy) - 🎮 or 🖥️ or 🐶 This is still in need of some major development. We used to have a certain decided order and specified identifiers, but with newcomers and reluctancy, it makes things more complicated. But we're trying in all the best ways we can. Maybe we should go back to the animal theme for identifiers.. Would really have wanted a spraycan for Delsin, it would've fit him so much better than everything else.
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