The Sanctum Complex
Welcome to the blog for the somewhat dysfunctional family that is The Sanctum Complex. We're a system of howmanymembersagain, and this is our blog.
23/11/2021 0 Comments To switch or not to switchTaru speaking. I don’t exactly plan these blogs, I just sit down and I write to my heart’s content. Anyway, for this one I thought about writing an update on what’s going on within the system. Might turn into something longer, or I might keep it short and spare the details. Either way-- I remember in a previous blog post, I updated about the current amount of members in the system. Of course, it’s been a year since then and a lot has happened. I won’t actually go into detail, but we’re around 30 on today’s date. It’s currently five people at front, including me, and they seem to be kind enough to be silent while I’m writing this. (As I say that I hear one of them chuckle at me. Be quiet, Lucifer, I’m writing here)
That comment is usually reserved for me *snigger* -S Okay, be quiet, all of you, I’m losing focus -T So rude -🍀 I am going to murder someone -T MOVING ON, I’m supposed to write something coherent here, ahem. As I said, we’ve reached ~30, but I’ll save the update on what’s happened and who’s here for a later blog. In this one, I’ll be focusing a little bit on myself, tbh. So I’ve been frontstuck since this system first came into existence. It was never an issue before, because I was coping rather alright with the things happening in outside life. Sure, it was a bit exhausting at times, but I was still doing okay. Nowadays, however, I’ve been wanting to switch out. I mean fully switch out to the point where I in no amount whatsoever feel connected or associated with the meatsack. I’m quite done with not being able to take any actual break and just walk out of front. It’s seriously tedious. How do singlets do this all on their own??? Anyway, I’ve been trying to practice dissociating and swithy witchy exercises. They seem to be working to a degree, but some days I just don’t have any hopes at all on being able to switch out... But at least I’m trying, right? If you’re open to my opinion, I think you’re doing very well -S Thank you, although I’m not sure if that...compliment?...is working currently, as I’m... Well, you know. Either way, I’ve been trying to take some small actions that will hopefully help with the dissociation aspect of things. Such as this phone I’m using to write this blog post; it’s our phone and not just my phone. It’s our roommate and not my roommate. It’s our parents, it’s our bed, our cats, our computer, etc etc etc. I’m hoping that these small things will help in making me less attached to the things here in meatspace so it’ll be easier to just leave front without feeling like I’m gonna miss out or something. Maybe it’ll help if I create some attachments in mindspace too, so I have something to really look forward to. We’ll see. Also, to further dissociate from this phone, we’ll collectively make efforts to depersonalize it. Instead of all of my accounts being the most active/used ones, we’ll switch to our system accounts on as many places as possible. I imagine this might be difficult, to some degree, since it seems that I’m personally rather attached to some of the accounts I’m using. However, I think this will be a good thing. Seeing as this is an attachment thing, if we make sure to switch accounts to the system accounts, it’ll be less personal for me, and I won’t have as much of an attachment to things. All leading to an easier time dissociating and switching out. Right, so this post is quite long already, and we have some things we need to get done together (all things considered), so I better round things up and bloop away from weebly. With that said, peace out from Taru, and I’ll be back soon again to give more updates! ✌️
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